Where does the time go?

I seriously thought I had posted a New Year Post, but maybe in the midst of all the "holiday" crap I forgot? Sounds good enough, Ha! Or maybe it is because I have nothing to post about, no emails from M or his mom! He is 17, yadda yadda yadda, I know this....I know that he has a life, that he doesn't sit around obsessing over me, that he doesn't sit around searching adoption sites and giving advice, he is living his life, isn't that what I wanted? SO why the moaning and groaning from me? I just want an email, it isn't to much to ask, he said he would write, so write dammit. I want to know he is ok, not ok in the sense of alive and well but in the sense that he is ok since having heard from me. I need to know that I haven't completely turned his world upside down, that he isn't angry at me and if he is let me try to help. GAH! I don't know, this reunion shit isn't as easy as I was hoping. All the research, all the listening, all the preparation for reunion did not make me ready for this, can you really ever be ready? I don't think so! So I sit and I wait, and I hope he is well!