Monday, July 14, 2008


WOW! I guess I am not very good at blogging? I get so darn busy!! I have random thoughts that I want to come here and blog about, I try to, but for whatever reason I get sidetracked and I never make it. Forgive me?

So, what has happened in 2 months? On the adoption front, NOTHING. I haven't pushed for anything, I know he has a lot going on with his girl moving off to college, football keeps him so busy and I am sure just enjoying his summer and anticipating his Senior year. I CAN NOT believe he is going to be a Senior, see, time just flies by! Ask me if I felt that 18 years has flown by, NOT! Seems like a lifetime has gone by since the last time I saw his little face :( I think I will drop him an email tomorrow just to let him know I am thinking of him, ya know sometimes those boys need a little "push".Ironically, he did NOT send his birth father an email on Father's Day, not sure what I think about that. Of course it made me feel special, but it makes me wonder why me and not him?

On the home front, so much has gone on! I had an abscessed tooth, I HATE DENTIST! Lots of pain and fun there, glad it is over. Hubby and I went through a rough patch, we are working on getting back on track, why do men have to be so stupid? I mean really, without going into detail tonight, why do they lie over the dumbest things? Especially mine, he knows he will get caught in the lie, he knows the lie is no big deal and if he would just tell the truth it would be so much easier? Yet, he takes the harder road. Stupid.Just. Stupid.

The kids are enjoying their summer, although Fred broke his thumb in a baseball game, UGH! Of course it couldn't just be a "break" it had to be a "BREAK", scheduled for surgery and everything, ended up not having to have surgery after they got him sedated they were able to move the bone back into place and cast it. We see the doctor once a week to make sure it is healing properly and as of last Thursday it looks like it might be moving a bit out of place, so surgery isn't completely out of the pic yet. He is pissed, wants to play fall baseball and it doesn't look promising. He seems to think, in his "I am invincible and way smarter than the doctor" 15 yr old attitude that he WILL be playing, we will see what the doc has to say about that! Here he is in his cast:

The other kids are doing well, baseball is over for the other boys and Katie will be starting Volleyball soon! School starts on the 13th of August and for the first time in 15 years I will be home alone with no children all day! What will I do with myself you ask? I don't know, but I am sure I will like it whatever it is :-)

So, that is all for tonight, just wanted to let you all know I am alive, just busy! I try to keep up on your blogs, so know that even though I am not commenting much I am thinking of you and wishing you all the best!

Miss you all!!


Michelle said...

Wow...alot going on, I'm sorry, I didn't realise. I wouldn't talk to me either. I hope you are feeling better and for the record...I hat dentists too! I am apparently the suckiest, most self centered friend ever...I hope you'll forgive me. Love ya still sis,

Desi said...


I just found your blog and I feel like you have taken the words right out of my mouth about your first born son.

This is my one and only post about my first born son

I'm obsessed with reading others feeling and experiences to know if my thoughts and feelings are normal. To have someone who can relate. I can't believe how dead on your feelings are with mine. The more I let myself think about adoption the more I want to search and read and process.

Thank you for being so open about your feelings and I hope it's ok with you if I come back often.


Michelle said...

Desi, PLEASE come back as often as you wish! I haven't blogged in forever but do plan to get back into it soon! I would love to hear more about you! Feel free to shoot me an email @

Glad you're here!